It was bound to happen eventually but I wish it hadnt. Lizzy and I are sharring a cold. She is congested and has lots of icky baby boogers that she likes to rub on me, and I have a sore throat and a bit of a runny nose. I have kept her proped up most of the day, eigther in my arms or in a seat. It seems to help keep her nose clear. She is in pretty good spirits about the whole thing though. I hope it will blow over soon.
I am making an early return to work this Sunday and I want to be healthy for it. I still have some mixed feelings about going back so soon but I think it is for the best. I am only going to be working 4 1/2 hours on Sundays and Lizzy will spend the time with Patrick. In a way it will be like taking time off from my full time job. For the last three months I have been on the job or on call 24-7, except when I drove to Edson. It is tough to be away from Lizzy but I really think it is for the best. I think the time Lizzy and Patrick spend together will help them bond.
I need to remember to bring lots of kleenix when I leave home on Sunday. Not just for the cold but also for the seperation tears. When I went to my appointment on Wednesday I was nearly in tears and I don't expect this to be any better. I really do miss having Lizzy inside my belly and with me always. I know I was ready to have my body to myself by the time she was born, but there were some real upsides to it. I love being Lizzy's mom so much that I often find myself hoping that she will want a brother or sister. I want to eventually have more kids and I want to have her happy about the situation.
I saw an episode of America's Funniest Videos a few weeks ago where the show's winning video was something that was not funny at all. A mom and dad sat their three kids around the table to tell them that they were going to have a new brother or sister. The oldest one who was maybe six or seven started crying and saying no, no. Then the littler ones started crying too. By the time the video was shown the baby was born as well as a following set of twins. I doubt if the poor older brother is geting much parental attention with all those babies in the house. I thought it was terrible not hilarious but the audience voted it nmber one.
Anyway, for all that I want more kids I do not want to cram them so close together that Lizzy has to throw a tantrum to get any attention, and I do not want to have so many that any of my kids feel lost in the flock.
Wow, I wasn't expecting to write all that. I guess it has been simmering in the back of my mind and it just spilled out. Something to reflect on anyway.
Terri